a new chapter

at any given time, we find ourselves in a state of creation, maintenance, or destruction. right now, it appears a chapter of my life is dissolving, which is as always, bittersweet - bitter because I’m-not-ready-and-I-don’t-wanna-don’t-make-me; sweet because wow, what a chapter it’s been! I’m praying and meditating on what’s next. I won’t lie, and it’ll come as no surprise: creation is my f a v o r i t e. yes! meanwhile, I’m trying to remain mindful to what is. my boy just turned a year. whoever said the days are long and the years are short - Mae West? - was right on. 

rarely does a day go by when I don’t take photographs. I know, I know: everyone takes photographs now because we all have smartphones. as much as my screentime app horrifies me (where does the time go), I’m not so romanced by the sound of the iphone shutter. it’ll work in a pinch, but I have more cameras than I care to admit here publicly. one of my friend’s daughters has a bushel of stuffed animals, and each night she chooses a couple to snuggle…so nobody’s left out and everyone feels loved. I feel that way about my cameras. I like to touch at least one each day. 

it’s taken me ten years to create a body of photographic work of which I’m proud. I’m not even sure proud is the right word; grateful seems more True. I’m grateful for the clients who’ve become friends who encourage and support me through each season. I’m grateful that after all this time, I get the opportunity to make a living creating art. I’m grateful for the slow and steady, patient and sometimes painstaking progress. I still get nervous before I shoot, although experience means I’m no longer afraid. I’m nervous because I know you’re offering me life’s most precious gift: time. your precious time. and, I want to make sure it’s worth it to you - that when you walk away, you’re better than when you came. if it’s true for you, it’ll be true for me, too, because the creation process is reciprocal like that. 

thanks for being here, for taking the time to read this. “right now it’s like this” is one of my favorite mantras for when life hurts. it implies that everything changes. the good news and the bad news? nothing lasts forever. here’s to what’s ahead: for me, for you, for all of us because we’re different, yet we’re the same. 

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